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random complaint [Jun. 14th, 2008|08:38 pm]
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One of my favorite food blogs, Chocolate and Zucchini hasn't been dishing out very many recipes since the author published a few books. Oh woe is me! Anyone have suggestions on favorite food blogs?
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Seattle/Friday Harbor trip- April '08 [May. 18th, 2008|12:26 pm]
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Alright dearies, here's the rundown! First of all, let me say that I had a truly magnificent time in Washington. I love that state like I love no other.

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interests: lymphomas [May. 3rd, 2008|02:35 pm]
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I know my title makes no sense right now, but do let me explain.
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hello expensive vodka made from potatoes [Apr. 24th, 2008|07:39 pm]
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If it wasn't for this I might not make it through Passover. Not that I'm an alcoholic, but 8 days with only kosher wine? Oh hell no.

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chag pesach sameach! [Apr. 23rd, 2008|10:14 am]
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I have a complete love-hate relationship with Passover. On the one hand I love seders and springtime and in many ways Pesach is my favorite holiday. On the other hand I am always made aware of what a slave I am to chametz (prohibited grains) and am generally miserable when it comes to eating. I put off implementing the dietary restrictions until I got back from WA, as K and I had planned to eat dim sum before my flight left and there is no way that one can have a full dim sum experience and keep moderately kosher. Since I've been back it's been a lot of cheese, almonds and salad until I could make it to the store. And now it's sweet and sour Passover meatballs for the next few dinners and for breakfast this morning it was red pepper and onion matzoh brei.

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I want to be a cowboy baby [Apr. 12th, 2008|11:09 am]
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When in Rome do as the Romans. When in Rochester MN, attend a bull-ride. And get drunk and dance with cowboys. I know I certainly did and damn it was a good time. And damn was I sloshed. Here's proof:


PS- You can't see it, but I am in fact wearing cowboy boots and LOVING IT!
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leggings [Apr. 4th, 2008|10:22 am]
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I think leggings may still be in this year. I am completely relieved as a dress/skirt with leggings and ballet flats has become one of my fashion staples. In fact, the majority of my planned wardrobe for when I'm in WA is exactly this. And my favorite black knee-high Born boots of course. I'm such a dork.
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I ain't nobody's baby, I ain't nobody's fool [Mar. 24th, 2008|01:39 pm]
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So I've been acting kind of like a spaz lately, especially when it has anything to do with my Seattle trip or K. I don't know what my problem is, it's kind of like I've reverted to acting like I'm 14 again. It's actually kind of funny how I do this sort of thing. For example, when I moved back in with my parents I started acting like I was 17 (how old I was the last time I lived with my parents for more than a summer) and snuck out of the house to meet up with F and stuff like that. I was 14 when I met K and sometimes I think I'm acting like a 14 year old when it comes to my feelings and the way I'm handling the situation. Basically I'm acting really odd and kind of immature. At least I acknowledge it though, yes?

Anyway, I like K this ridiculous amount which is kind of crazy since I haven't seen him for 10 years. billydontrat thinks it might just be nostalgia and I'm sure that could be part of it, but I don't think it's the whole story. It's a strange combo of emotions, from fear that things aren't at all mutual or that I'd be a rebound if I end up as anything, to these totally happy ecstatic smitten feelings. I probably talk to him too much, think about him too much, premeditate how the visit will go to an unhealthy degree, over-analyze what he says and what he says he does and doesn't do, etc. I should probably "play the game" a bit more, but I never was good at such things. As distant as I can sometimes be emotionally, I really do believe I'm more of a heart-on-her-sleeve type of gal and I think that's sometimes to my detriment.


Oh! It was amazing to talk to some of my old chums billydontrat and Luke last night. I love you boys and I miss you both terribly!
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in case no one noticed [Mar. 15th, 2008|11:50 am]
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My heart belongs to Seattle. I can't get over being excited about this trip!
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a much needed long update [Mar. 14th, 2008|03:16 am]
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Dearest Livejournal,

I'm sorry I've neglected you for so long. I'm also sorry for neglecting my friends' list over the past several months, but I guess these things happen.

Life is crazy and strange as always and full of flux. But I'm keeping my head above water and sometimes I even feel joyful. Mostly I feel stressed and unsure about the rapid progression of where life takes me.

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